spn ficlet: nihil

[xylodemon]

nihil
Lucifer, Nick | gen | ~200 words

i’m gonna write a coda where Lucifer chooses to stay in the Empty bc he doesn’t give a shit about earth anymore, if my luck holds maybe i can tulpa *that* into existence

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"I like doing these things, and I don't want to stop."

Silence. Nothingness.

"I'm bonded to you, and what you are. That—that's how you first found me."

Lucifer. Lucifer is—Lucifer is—

"I don't know who I am, if I'm not you."

A ripple in the darkness.

"No consequences, no pain, no sorrow—I want that back. I want it back. I don't want to feel now what I didn't feel then."

A tug at Lucifer's consciousness.

"Where are you?" Nick's voice breaks. "Where are you?"

Lucifer opens his eyes.

"H-help me."

Something walks by—something Lucifer feels rather than sees. Footsteps echoing in the stillness. Lucifer twists and writhes until he takes shape, until he can stand. The Empty throbs around him, an ebb and flow of pure absence. Nonexistence.

Nick is sobbing now. Lucifer can feel it—a heavy thrum of desperation. An endless pulse of want.

"Come back."

He could do it. He could gather what's left of his power and use it to tear a hole in reality. To yank himself back to earth.

Or, he could go back to sleep.

"Lucifer, please."

Yeah, he thinks he'll do that. Earth is bullshit anyway. The Winchesters can have it.